A PLACE TO KEEP A COUPLE SECONDS WORTH REMEMBERING II

The song ended and I thought to myself that the world is leaderless, and full of savages. My girlfriend nudged my arm and told me we have to have a boy first. I felt a twinge up my spine as thoughts rippled through me. It is weird how people experience things differently, but also completely the same. She whispered that demand in my ear in-between songs. We were standing up front at a concert so it was less of a whisper and more of a quiet rasp shouted at my head. There were so many feelings to feel. The band started another song with all feedback. Chemicals swam through my veins - thoughts swirled in and out of past, present, and future tense. It was the best kind of overwhelming. It was amazing how many ideas and scenarios were flashing through my mind. I couldn't keep up or I would have tried to make a note to myself to do something with the mess I was conjuring. There were too many ideas, philosophies, anecdotes, dreams, hopes, and inspirations flowing through the chaos. I wondered if she felt the same. We smiled back and forth as the sounds consumed the air around us. I thought she was probably thinking of the boy we would have one day. But maybe she was on to her next idea, philosophy, anecdote (from her day that would soon vanish that she would later try to recall to tell me about but fail.. until a couple days later), dream, hope, or inspiration that flowed through her. Or maybe she just had that one nice, perfect, thought about us. Shared it with me, and that was it. Back to the music. That thought slipped through my mind and now I could hardly take the beauty of the world. And how lucky I was to be in with someone that would say something like that to me. It was one of those nights to refresh the system. To let the mind cycle through exciting fresh thoughts and to filter out the festering doubts that had been building up. So what if the world felt leaderless and full of savages? There is good to be had in the smallest details far far away in our own corners of it. We can be our own savage leaders. Later that night we went to bed and joked about the ringing in our ears.